Generation 1; Chapter 5

"Oh." 



Nilly-Bean,

I am hoping that your father gives this to you when you are old enough to understand!
I did not mean for you to find out this way, but I am not your mother!

Several years after we were married, your father had a whirlwind 'romance'. When I found out I wanted to leave him. He promised that it didn't mean anything and that he only loved me, so I stayed. About a year later a knock on the door changed our lives. The other woman who your father had 'found' was on our doorstep with a baby in her arms. That baby was you. She was crying. She asked us to take you in. She said she couldn't cope on her own. I wasn't too happy with this idea, I wanted children of my own, not some child from an affair! Not to mention how the neighbours would react!

But we took you in. It was so hard to love you when I couldn't even look at you. Your father absolutely adored you. His eyes always lit up when he cradled you in his arms. I just couldn't bear it. 

When we decided to try for a baby of our own I thought it could patch up what happened. So we tried and we tried and it just would not work. I didn't think our relationship could work through this much heartache, so I threw myself into work. Your father had to go back to work, too, so we hired Azure as our nanny. 

It wasn't at first but I started to get feelings for Azure. She made me feel. Of course I still had feeling for your father but I never fully trusted and loved him after what he had done. 

When we got caught I realized that I could not go on any more. I loved Azure and she loved me. I decided it was best that I left. It wasn't fair to you for me to stay. 

I am so sorry! Please don't hate me!
Mum
Sugar

I just- I just couldn't believe what I had read. My Mum wasn't my Mum? Why didn't my Dad tell me? Why was I only finding out about this now!



I ran out of my room and out the front door. I didn't even hear my dad when he tried to tell me to stop. I just ran and ran, not knowing where I was going. 



I somehow ended up at the beach. I had needed time to think, to process it all. Skipping stones into the water calmed my mind just a bit. All that kept going through my mind was that it wasn't possible to have two mothers that didn't want me. Was it? 



I stayed out all night, sleeping on a bench. The morning sun was shining bright on my face. A sinking feeling rolled over my stomach as I remembered the letter. I couldn't forget it all even if I tried.  I thought about going home but I couldn't face my dad. I didn't want to see Drizzle or Alizarin, either. So I just stayed by the beach staring out to sea. 



I didn't know how long I sat there. Minutes? Hours? I heard someone walking behind me. I turned and looked. It was the last person I wanted to face and yet it was the one I wanted to hug to take away the pain. 



"I wouldn't have thought you would come here." 



"Dad, I don't understand!" The tears that I had been holding in started to stream down my face. "What did you do? Why didn't either of them want me?" 

"Listen, I am not going to pretend that I was a good guy. I did mess up, but don't you for one minute think that you are not wanted. I love you, that is all that matters! Both of your mums are idiots for missing out on knowing you. I think it's best that we go home for now, you look frozen." 

As we walked back home in silence, my tears seemed to have stopped rolling down my face. I saw Mocha's worried face as I passed her to go to my room. The room was still decorated with balloons, a sad remnant of what was the happiest I had been in a long time.  



"Did you know?" My voice was barely audible. 

"I don't know what you mean. Where did you go, Vanilla?" She sounded as if she genuinely cared. I was somewhat glad that Dad hadn't told her. I headed into my room without answering her questions. 



Through the door I heard Dad tell her everything. 

"Poor Vanilla! Is there anything I can do?" 

"No, I don't think there is. It's best we just let her have the time to sort out her head. I knew I shouldn't have given her that letter!"

"You did what was best. I am sure she will understand that."

I didn't want to hear any more, so I drowned them out with my MP3 player that Drizzle's family had given me. I stayed in my room for the rest of the day, even ignoring the calls for dinner 'till the night came and sleep came over my body. 

Generation 1; Chapter 4

So much had happened in what felt like a short space of time. Dad had found love and moved her in. He upgraded the house for us. Drizzle and I had become the best of friends. Not much could upset my happiness, right?

Wrong!

She still tormented me at school. Not only me, but Drizzle, too. He kept saying that we should talk to Miss Vermell about Plum. But I just couldn't, it would have made things ten times worse. 



"Oh look, here comes No Name Nilly! Watch this" Plum whispered to Polar and Forest. They were just her lackeys. Always doing and acting just like Plum because that is all they knew. "I am having an awesome sleepover at my house this weekend. It is going to be great. Hey Nilly, would you like to come?"

I was taken aback. Plum was asking if I wanted to go to her sleepover? Maybe she was giving up on her reign of terror.
"Um, s-sure, that would be nice" I spluttered. 

"Well, tough, you can't!" she grinned menacingly "I only asked if you wanted to. Haha!" The trio laughed. 

Suddenly, a voice piped up from the other side of the classroom. "Plum, give over, it's not funny any more. It's boring." 



I looked over to where the voice came from. It was Alizarin. I couldn't believe he was standing up for me. He was a trouble maker, always in trouble with Miss Vermell. Everyone looked up to him, and what he said goes. 

"W-why are you sticking up for this loser, Ali?" Plum stuttered. 

"Psh the only loser I see around here is you, Plum." Everyone in the class sniggered. 



I could see Plum was about to burst. It felt amazing to see her being treated the way she had been treating me. Before she could say anything Miss Vermell came into the class, ready to teach. Plum had to sit through several classes just stewing, and I was enjoying it. 

Once Plum had backed down with thanks to Alizarin, things in class went more smoothly. I was able to speak to the others in class and actually enjoyed myself. Of course Plum still gave me dirty looks and said things under her breath, but I didn't care.



Both Drizzle and I spent more time with Alizarin. By the time my big birthday came 'round we were all the best of friends. 

I had decided with the help of my Dad and Mocha to have a small party. Just Drizzle, his family and Alizarin. We were able to afford a little decoration, a CD player and a cake, to make this party decent. 



It was actually quite fun. Just dancing with my two best friends, laughing, joking and telling stories. Alizarin told the best ghost stories, even Dad was scared.



Then the time came for me to blow out the candles. I looked back at my Dad, his eyes were full of joy. I blew the candles out, made my wish and waited for the magic to happen.
 
Now here I was, a teen. ( I wished that by the end of the night my hair looked better.)



It was time to open my pressies. I couldn't believe what Dad and Mocha gave me - it was an actual laptop! 



"You deserve this, Nilly" Dad said as he hugged me. 

Drizzle and his family had given me an MP3 player. It was unreal. "Wow, thank you so much, just ... wow." I was speechless. 

Lastly, it was Alizarin's turn to give me a present. His present was not like the others. He had given me a book that I loved to take out from the library over and over again. This one was hard-backed and it was all mine. 
"It is not as fancy as all the others but I knew you loved this book. Now it is yours." He said looking at his feet. 

"It is amazing, truly amazing. Everyone, thank you, this day couldn't have gotten any better." I meant it with all my heart. I had never felt so loved. 

After the excitement of the party had died down and everyone had gone home, Dad came into my room.



"Nilly, I have been debating whether or not you should have this, but I think you are old enough to read it. Um, if you want to talk about it afterwards I will be here for you, okay?" 

"Um, sure dad." I did not like where this was going. 

He handed me a letter and left the room. I had forgotten all about this letter. It was from my mum, the night she had abandoned us for the nanny. 

I opened it up and read what she had to say for herself.

"Oh."